Sunday, 17 November 2019

The First And Last Time I...New Version

November 17, 2019 0
The First Time I...Tag Questions

I have already done a smaller and similar blog to this one previously but this one has more questions and more detail!
Ilike finding out things about people,especially people in the public eye. And because I write blogs I like my followers to know things about me too. So one day when I was bored I decided to write another new blog but was stuck for ideas. Then I found this on the internet and thought I could have a go at filling it out as I like to do these kind of things. They are fun to do. So here goes... 

First app you check when you wake up in the morning? Facebook or messenger
First broken bone? Never broken any thankfully.
First foreign country you ever visited? I have never visited any
First Instagram, twitter or Facebook post? I can't actually remember what they were. I have been on twitter 10 years,Facebook at least 10 and my first instagram picture I think I deleted a while back.
First make-up item? a make up set my cousin bought me when I was a kid. Mum would not let me use most of it.
First plane ride you ever went on? I have never been on a plane
First time I ever got into trouble at home and school? At home it was for flicking paint everywhere on purpose - I was three. At school I can't remember what it was but it got me a detention. I do remember when I first got in to trouble at Playgroup. I swore at my teachers and it was bad enough to get me suspended.
First time you were allowed to put on make-up? When I was 6 Mum bought me some cheap lip gloss but I wore proper make up probably around the age of 13 - nail varnish,lipstick,things like that.
First time you went shopping on your own? I was around 15 and it was in Barnsley.
My first Celebrity crush? Lee from Steps I was 10 years old. 
My first cooking experience? I was around 6 and I made some buns with help from my nan and I gave one to my teacher Mrs Schofield.
My first ever cell phone? My cousin gave me her old Nokia 3310 I was so pleased but scared that I might break it that I spent 5 minutes just staring at it.
My first ever kiss? It was with someone who I classed as my boyfriend,who I met at school. I didn't kiss him until after I had left school and it wasn't even a proper kiss. It turned out he wasn't really into me and I later found out why he wasn't into me and it wasn't because of my looks.
My first fear? Needles. I can handle needles now a lot better than when I was younger.
My first friend in college? It was a fellow called Ian. He was lovely. He still is.
My first piercing and when did I get it? My ears and I was seven. I screamed my head off and refused to have the other one done. I did have it done though.
My first swear word? I can't remember the actual words but it was bad enough to get me suspended from nursery aged 4.
My first thought today? Whaat am I doing today?
My first time on a train? Aged 7 with my mum. We were going down south to meet my (step) dad
The first person I talked to today? Dad
The first person that ever broke my heart? Hannah. She was my second partner.
The first text I sent today? a text to Dad confirming the time we were meeting up.
The first thing I do every morning? Check my phone
The first thing I do when I get home? Pick up any post then Turn the telly on.
The first time you ever got drunk? The first time I ever got drunk was in Rotherham where I drank a whole cheap bottle of wine and ended up on the floor. Then a couple of months ago. I woke up in a state of undress and I cannot remember everything I did. Only parts. The second time was a couple of weeks back and unfortunately resulted in vomiting everywhere and blowing up my iPod so I had to buy a new one from the CEX shop
The first wedding I attended? Apparently I went to my cousins wedding a long time ago but I do not recall it. The only one I remember going to is my mums in 1999 she was marrying my (step) dad
When did you go to your first party? My friend Lisa's birthday. I think I was 5 at the time
When did you have your first sleepover? At a friend's house. I was 12 years old.
First time I got a speeding ticket? Never because I do not drive

The Last Time I...
When was the last time you said no? Probably Friday when the doctor asked me a question and I replied with no.
When was the last time you hurt yourself? A couple of days ago when I went for one of my night time walks and almost did my ankle in a pothole!
When was the last time you thought to yourself, ‘never again’?  Earlier tonight when I went to watch the Christmas light switch on. There must have been 500 people there all trying to get in, too much shoving and pushing and my anxiety started playing up once I saw the crowd. I should never have gone.
When was the last time you felt on top of the world? When I lost a stone in just over a week after I got sciatica last year. Not a good reason but I was elated and so pleased.
When was the last time you tidied your room / your desk? Last week
When was the last time someone shouted at you? A very long time ago. Maybe a coupld of years back.
When was the last time you had a problem with your computer? When my disk drive broke I still haven't got it fixed yet.
When was the last time you had a perfect day? My last perfect day was when I last met Darren,my bowling bud.
When was the last time you said sorry? I say it often even when I don't actually need to. Probably to Dad on the phone last night.
When was the last time you bumped into an old friend? in 2017 in Doncaster.
When was the last time you went shopping? Friday evening
When was the last time you travel by train? 2009 and I don't like the train at all. But I had to because at the time it was the only way I could have got home.
What was the last thing you ate? A twirl
What was the last film or TV show you watched? Miami 7
What was the last song you heard? Leave Right Now by Will Young
When was the last time you went on a date? July 2019 with a guy called Mark
When was the last time you had a party? When I was 14. It wasn't that great. Only ten people came.
When was the last time you argued with your parents? A long long time ago. More than 6 years ago.
When was the last time you had your hair cut? July 2019 when I was in Yorkshire
When was the last time you lost money? It wasn't a substantial amount but I lost a few quid on the fruit machine last year.
When was the last time you painted your house? I started in August 2018, and I have failed to finish it. There is a pink square behind my bed. I have been meaning to do my bathroom.
When was the last time you screamed because you were scared? I can't remember the last time I screamed because I was scared.
When was the last time you wanted to forget about the world? Every day. I cannot remember a time when I didn't want to forget.
When was the last time you borrowed a book? 2010. I get all mine from Amazon now
When was the last time you bought a CD? Last Tuesday when I bought Now 104
When was the last time you danced? A few nights ago in my bedroom
When was the last time you dialed the wrong number? A long time ago...Years.
When was the last time you drank coffee? at least 7 years ago. I don't drink it very much at all.
When was the last time you drove for more than two hours? I don't drive.
When was the last time you dyed your hair? The middle of the year I think. I tried dying it Mystic Violet but It just tinted my hair, it didn't actually go purple.
When was the last time you fell? I don't remember the last time. It was a very long time ago.
When was the last time you felt really happy? July when I came back to Barnsley for a visit. I went to Doncaster and Rotherhm.
When was the last time you forgot where something important was?  Some paperwork and an appointment letter but I found them
When was the last time you got a gift? A Christmas present back in December from my good friend Tony.
When was the last time you had a headache? A couple of nights ago.
When was the last time you had a nightmare? A few weeks back. It was horrible.
When was the last time you laughed your head off? Earlier today at something Dad did
When was the last time you lent money to someone? A few weeks ago to my sister
When was the last time you played a sport?  2010 I played Rounders.
When was the last time you saw a very interesting movie? I last watched The Mummy. I watch it a lot and I always find it interesting even after nearly 20 years.
When was the last time you studied until late at night? It was probably when I was still at school. Around 16 years ago or so.
When was the last time you swam?Never as I cannot swim
When was the last time you talked to an old friend? Today on messenger.
When was the last time you told a joke? A few days ago to Dad I can't tell you what it is because it is really rude.
When was the last time you took a day off? Every day as I am not able to work right now
When was the last time you took a very hot and long shower? a couple of days ago
When was the last time you visited your hometown? July. It was nice to be back for a visit.
When was the last time you went to a good restaurant? I went to the Harvester a few weeks back, they are really good as I love their salad bar. I went to the Hungry Horse a few days back.
When was the last time you wrote a letter? A couple of weeks ago with an SAE included to some of the Emmerdale,Eastenders,Corrie and Hollyoaks cast. Still awaiting a reply though.

Sunday, 27 October 2019

Halloween Tag Blog

October 27, 2019 2
I found this on another blog site so I though I would have a go myself. Credit to whoever created this!

1. Favourite horror or Halloween-themed song? Monster Mash of course :)

2. Name something you wouldn’t want to run into in a dark forest or in an abandoned building. A ghost

3. Have you ever played with a Ouija Board? No but I have thought about it

4. Favourite horror monster or villain? Dracula

5. The creepiest thing that’s ever happened while you were alone? I felt my left side go icily cold and felt someone touch my arm. No one else was in the room

6. If you were dared to spend the night in a “haunted house”, would you do it? Yeah I think I would

7. Are you superstitious? I am not really,no

8. Do you ever see figures in your peripheral vision? No I can't rally say I do. Though once or twice I have seen black shadows running across the room.

9. Which urban legend scares you the most? Frankenstein

10. Do you prefer gore or thrillers? Both

11. Do you believe in multiple dimensions or worlds? Yes. I believe that there is another world out there, like where aliens live

12. Ever made a potion of any sort? No as I don't really know how

13. Do you get scared easily? I used to but not anymore

14. Have you ever played Bloody Mary? What's that?

15. Do you believe in demons/the devil? Yes. I do believe

16. You’re home alone but you hear footsteps in your house, what do you do? I would be convinced that it's the floorboards or someone walking around in the above flat

17. If you got trapped in one scary movie, which would you choose? Probably Scary Movie :)

18. If you could only wear one halloween costume for the rest of your life, what would you be? I would probably wear a dead zombie costume.

19. would you ever go to a graveyard at night? Yeah I would like to, see if anything happens.

20. In a zombie apocalypse what is your weapon of choice? A sword!

21. Would you rather go to a Halloween party or go trick or treating? Probably a halloween party. I am too old for knocking on doors

22. You’re in a horror movie. Are you the final girl, the first to die, the comic relief, the skeptic, the smart one, or the killer? No way am I going to be killed off first! I would like to make it til the end so I guess I would be the final girl.

23. Do you have to watch something happy after watching a horror movie so you can go to sleep?
I don't really watch that many horror movies. The only 'scary' movies I have ever watched are Scary Movie and The Mummy/Returns. I certainly didn't need to watch anything happy after those.

24. Whilst watching scary movies, are you the person who yells at the characters, the person with their eyes covered the whole time, or the person who falls asleep? While watching The Mummy/Returns I tend to yell at the characters.

25. Are you the one who gets scared, or the one who does the scaring? I would be the one to get scared

26. Favorite scary book? I don't read many books.

27. How old were you when you saw your first horror movie? I was probably about 14 or 15 I first watched Scary Movie and 10 When I first sw The Mummy.

28. What was your first Halloween costume? From what I can remember I have never actually worn a real halloween costume. Last year I wore a red vest top when I became a zombie-devil.

29. What are you going to be for Halloween this year? Same as last year. Dead Zombie devil. Last year I used oilet roll and liquid latex to make it look like I had been clawed on my face.

30. If you could have a spooky halloween pet (black cat, owl, bat, rat, wolf), what would you pick? Dad has a black moggie called Marmite so I think I would like a black cat too. I like back cats.

Saturday, 21 September 2019

50 Things I've Never Been Asked

September 21, 2019 0
One of my friends uploaded this as his Facebook post yesterday and it made me think about doing this too. So here goes - 50 things that I have never been asked :)

1. What is the color of your toothbrush?
Red and White
2. Name one person who made you smile today.
No one made me smile today
3. What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
4. What were you doing 45 minutes ago? Playing Candy Crush 
5. What is your favorite candy? Liquorice Allsorts,Wine Gums,Flying Saucers,Anything fizzy/Sour and Cola bottles
6. Have you ever been to a strip club?
Hahaha no!
7. What is the last thing you said out loud?
'Well launch it you div!' I was getting annoyed with Candy Crush not launching something. 
8. What is your favorite ice cream?
Rum and Raisin
9. What was the last thing you had to drink?
Cloudy Lemonade I had it with my medication
10. Do you like your wallet?
Yeah I do. I chose it a couple of months ago as I needed a new one and I really liked the look of it. It is white with red roses on it. 
11.What was the last thing you ate?
12. Have you bought any new clothing items this week?
Not this week,no
13. The last sporting event you watched?
Final Score
14. What is your favorite flavor of popcorn?
15. Who is the last person you sent a text message to?
16. Ever go camping?
17. Do you take vitamins daily?
18. Do you have a tan? No
19. Do you prefer Chinese food over pizza?
20. Do you drink your soda with a straw?
It depends on how I feel
21. What did your last text message say?
Don't forget your Opthamology appointment...
22. What are you doing tomorrow?
Counselling session but other than that I have no idea...
23. Look to your left, what do you see?
An empty pop bottle
24.What color is your watch?
Gold - I don't wear it anymore though. 
25. What do you think of when you hear Australia?
Koala Bears and Neighbours
26. Do you go in a fast food place or just hit the drive thru? It depends on how I feel or what me and Dad are doing. 
27. What is your favorite number?
28. Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
Someone ringing me up to do with a repair that had needed to be done in my bathroom
29. Any plans today?
Sleeping,eating tea then going for a walk around where I live. 
30. How many states have you lived in?
31. Biggest annoyance right now? My back. I can't even lie down on my bed and get up again without pain and walking funny. 
32. Last song listened to?
Finish Line by Yasmin
33. Can you say the alphabet backwards?
Yes but only if I think about it while doing it. 
34. Do you have a maid service clean your house?
35. Favorite pair of shoes you wear all the time?
My slip ons
36. Are you jealous of anyone?
No and why should I be?
37. Is anyone jealous of you?
I don't think so. 
38. Do you love anyone?
39. Do any of your friends have children?
Yes lots of my friends have them. 
40. What do you usually do during the day?
It varies
41. Do you hate anyone that you know right now?
One or two people. 
42. Do you use the word 'hello' daily?
43. What color is your car?
I don't have a cat but dad does, she's black. 
44. Are you thinking about someone right now? Yes
45.Have you ever been to Six Flags?
What's that?
46. How did you get your scars? I don't want to say. 
47. Do you like tattoos?
Yes but I don't think I would be brave enough to ever have one done :) Though if I did I'd like 8 or 9 including a barcode, one design that I have done myself and Hi-Fi from the raggy dolls. 
48. Have you ever been out of the country ?
No never
49. Looks, brains, or personality?
50. Biggest regret ?
Three! Not being there when my mum and nan died, not taking any photos of me and my nan together and not doing GCSE Drama at school. 

Wednesday, 14 August 2019

Being Someone Else - My performing Arts Experience

August 14, 2019 0
I love being someone else. It's brilliant. A different name,age,personality and I can have a different accent too. I can be a killer one week or the next I can have three kids with a adulterous hubby the next. It's all in the name of acting. Of course, I am not a killer and I am not actually married with any kids - would be nice to be a mum one day soon. Maybe in a few years. (Kids and marriage that is)

I have always loved singing and acting. They are my two main passions in life. I was aged 6 when i was cast in the Christmas nativity as 'Narrator No.8'. I also played 'Mum' in a piece made for assembly. I loved acting in school but after year 9 I never thought about taking drama for my GCSEs. I was still very much into it though. I was forever singing and acting upstairs in my room. I enjoyed learning lines for plays. And from year 7-9 I would always volunteer to be in the Summer/Christmas choir. I left my first secondary school halfway through year 9. I really do regret not doing a drama GCSE as performing is something I LOVE! It would probabaly be the only GCSE I would have excelled in - I wasn't overly academic though I loved English,Art and Drama. I was not that great at Art though. 

I didn't have to worry for long though. No sooner as I had left school, I decided i was not going to college - until I found out that I would be paid. I did a Vocational Access Course (Known as VAC for short) and on Monday afternoon, I joined Millennium Volunteers Barnsley's Drama club. I was happy to be back doing what i loved. You see, in the world of professional acting there is a lot of discrimination. Larger people (Like myself) do not get offered many roles which I think is very unfair. People like me should get a chance just like everyone else. There are very few larger actors. I think casting directors want everyone to be model stick thin. If this IS the case then they need to get with the times and realise that larger people should be given a fair trial. When they audition, it's like they are going to get a no straight away even before they open their mouths to talk - just because they are too big for the part. 

I played the part of Older Princess in MV's production of The Princess Who Stole Christmas - in January 2006.  Then in March 2006 I sang two solos and did a duet at the college's 'Big event - Easter concert. That was actually the last time I got on stage to do anything until 2009. I auditioned for a place on the Performing arts course at Barnsley College and I was accepted - then I couldn't enroll as I was moving to Leeds. I was devastated. I auditioned twice for Leeds Thomas Danby for the same course. I got turned down twice and they never told me why but when I auditioned for Newbury college and again, Barnsley college for the same course as I auditioned for at Leeds - I got in on both of them. I still feel to this day that I was discriminated against by Leeds Thomas Danby because of my weight. I had to turn down Barnsley again because I could not find anywhere to live. I was devastated yet again. I would love to audition for Drama school but I would need some kind of student finance and somewhere to live if I got in - plus the audition fee. Life is too expensive! I need to win the Euromillions :)

In the Summer of 2009 I auditioned for a place at Newbury College. I was delighted and amazed to be told I was in. I was just so happy. While I was at college I played a pirate in Peter Pan. We got to perform to schools while doing Peter Pan. Of course, us pirates got booed every time. I played myself in 'Teen Issues' and Amber in 'Heartbreak Beautiful'. Amber was probably my favourite role. I got to swear and do/say things that I would never do/say in real life. We did some promotion as well to bring people to the course. Now, there was really no point in that because they pulled the course from the curriculum months later. The highlight of my time on the course was getting to perform 'Over The Rainbow' at the end of year show. If I could do it again and do things differently, I would sing a different song and I wouldn't have worn sports gear as Amber, I would have worn and actual school uniform like most did. I had a few personal issues which I ended up bringing to college, not deliberately. I was also emotional most of the time. I felt, looking back, that it probably kind of clouded my ability to concentrate fully on my roles when it came to rehearsals. In between my year at college, I managed to get an unpaid gig performing at St Nicholas' hall in Newbury as part of a Christmas Cabaret. I did two songs. Both X Factor winners singles (Well, they WERE released for Christmas) and I managed to score a part as an unpaid extra in the film 'The Sweet Shop' as a schoolgirl. Also starring Gemma Atkinson, it was filmed where I lived. The parts I was in were done at my sisters old secondary school so I didn't have to travel very far. About five minutes walk away.

All I need now is an agent. Meanwhile, I continue to write. I completed the script to my first very short film which I aim to get filmed soon and uploaded to Youtube. I am in the process of brainstorming ideas for my first crime story,my first real romace story and I have written a lot of songs. Acting is something I love because I like being someone other than myself as it helps me to just forget who I really am and can concentrate on playing tahat character. I will always love performing and it's what I am to do until I no longer enjoy it. Even when I had my job all I really wanted to do was act. Acting is what I want to do, singing and writing comes a close second. 


Winning And Losing Repost

August 14, 2019 0
This was originally posted to another one of my blogs which I have now deleted but have posted this one to my main blog as a repost. I have also slightly tweaked this

Hello everyone. I haven't blogged in a while so I thought I had better get on line and make one while I am waiting for the results of Eurovision to come on...which is some considerable time.

I can't stop smiling. There are a couple of reasons why. Even though I have just received a massive static shock from my laptop I am still grinning from ear to ear.

Since I last blogged (March I think) I managed to buy myself an exercise bike from Amazon. Within 3 days one of the straps from the foot pedal broke so I had to order another pedal then a few weeks later the other one went so I had to get a replacement for that one. But I am loving using it. It is the best purchase I have made and it is helping me to get fitter. Today I burned 425 calories in just over 40 minutes and that is without getting off as I normally have to get off it before I burn 300. I am still very happy using the gym at RIO (Rotherham Institute of Obesity) and that is mainly because of our instructor,Luke. He's always smiling,very caring,always asking how you are and how your week has been. He is very friendly,very relaxed and is always there for you. Even if your struggling he will always encourage you and never rushes you. He always says to me that I'm doing very well which makes me want to push myself on further. I wish there were more people like Luke in the world....

I have also found myself a wonderful boyfriend. I have not had any real happiness for a long time and Stephen is a very lovely man. I just hope it lasts this time....

Now my blog post is called winning and losing. Here is the 'Losing' part.

I am happy to say that I will not need to have gastric surgery for the time being. The reason is because I am losing weight naturally by myself now (That is where the 'losing' part comes in) I am on slimming tablets given to me by my lovely doctor. When I had a weigh in at RIO just over a month ago I weighed 17st1. I suffer from depression on and off and sometimes it can be really bad. Recently, I was struggling to motivate myself and to get out of the depression. I was putting weight on not caring what I ate. I have to reach targets at RIO so I knew I had to do something. I feel a lot better now I am back out of depression and I found out at my most recent weigh in that I had lost 4 pounds and I am still losing the weight which I am now weighing 16st11. I had bought myself weighing scales as well so now I have no excuse not to weigh myself. I am gaining more confidence everyday. I am determined to get to 16st before my 26th birthday in July and I will focus on my goal to get fitter,thinner and become a new me.

I have always struggled with depression and other mental health problems which sometimes leaves me struggling with my emotions.
I won't go into it today but one day I shall be brave enough to share my experiences of mental health in a new blog. Whenever I feel upset or down I always try to make myself feel better by singing my favourite song at the moment which is Alexandra Burke/Bruno Mars' 'Perfect'. Life makes me realise that no one is perfect - not even me. Life can be tough and believe me, I have had my fair share of tough.
I have also come to realise that in order to get better properly and win my ongoing battle (Here comes the bit where I'm winning) I need to get rid of the 'rubbish' in my life. So called friends,fella's who are only talking to me to get one thing from me,etc. I need to concentrate on looking after no.1 for the moment and continue with the gym,continue seeing my nan every week. She always makes me laugh and makes me feel better about things.  (I love my nan - Nan's always know best) I also need to look for something to do which I enjoy other than gym like singing or acting or writing. Ten pin bowling is what I love doing so one day soon I may just go. Just not on my own LOL. I will one day come out of this smiling.
I may not have won my war just yet but I WILL defeat my demons and break free from my struggles and the things/people holding me back...AND WIN THIS!

So sometimes I have to go and see someone at RIO who is a talking therapist - I go to see him regarding food - it's not really about mental health which is what I would normally associate a Talking Therapist with. When I first met him I was struggling to open up to him as most of my food issues are linked to my emotional problems and I felt relieved when I finally did open up. I know now that I was feeling guilty and taking the burden for things that was out of my control and was not my fault. He gave me a 'tapping' exercise to do which has worked so farI am hoping that when I next go to see him I shall have something good to tell him as my last session didn't go that well. That was when I was back in depression. Maybe I could do a video in regards to depression. Oh yeah...Youtube :) I have recently uploaded a few videos to my YT channel. There are a few of me on there singing. I posted one or two a few years back but deleted them due to me not being very confident and I was rather - I shall admit this - fat. And I thought I was rather horrible to look at so I took them down. So I decided to upload a video of me singing a cover of Duffy's Warwick Avenue. I got so many views in the first day plus I had 3 likes,0 dislikes and a few comments on there. If you would like to check my youtube channel out you can at,com/EmmaWilkinson1

Well, I think that is all I can possibly tell you. I will be back in a week or so with my blog on my experiences with mental health - If I feel brave enough to post it. I'm off to watch Eurovision now...and do a review of an album that I like which I shall blog about later and possibly YT it too

Laters ;)


Tuesday, 9 July 2019

Finally reached 30 and Another Year Older

July 09, 2019 0
It is the 9th July today. It was my birthday yesterday and I became the ripe old age of 30. Yes 30. Now some people have said to me 'But you can't be...You don't look it' Or 'But I thought you were only about 18.' Yeah,thanks. I don't know whether to be flattered or insulted. And I STILL get ID'd for things. Recently I even got asked to show ID for a scratchcard...seriously? You have to be 16 or older to buy one of those so are you saying I actually look 16!?

I went away to Yorkshire for a week and came back on the 7th. Everytime I go away to Yorkshire I don't wanna come home again. So did I make the wrong decision moving back to Berks? No. I mean, I like it here and I have dad to think about. But Yorkshire is and always will be my home.

I don't feel any older or any different. But there are things I still haven't done yet that I need to hurry up and do like getting my headshots done professionally,getting an agent and start my acting career again,recording studio session... One of my college friends has just had a baby and he's a beautiful little boy and it made me realise that I really want to be a mum before I turn 35. My mum was 32 and 41 when she had her kids so I still have time yet.

I enjoyed the coach trip up to Yorkshire and back. We went via London. I finally got to go to Golders Green,Marble Arch,Baker Street and a few other places in london even though they were literally flashing visits. I am hoping to take me and my friend around London soon because I really wanna go to Madame Tussauds and Eaton place. I had to wait 2hours and 45 minutes in Victoria for the second coach home (It would have been 2hr30 but the coach was 15 minutes late) and it cost me 30p to use the toilet.

I made the decision to have my hair chopped shorter with the undercut. But it nearly didn't happen due to the hairdressers lack of customer service skills. 'Oh can you wait ten minutes my dinners going to get cold.' I said I couldn't really because I don't live in Rotherham and need to get back because I have to go back home the following day. So she got in to a bit of a huff. And her response? 'Oh well my dinners gonna get cold then' Sorry love but I came for a haircut. Your customers come first not your dinner! So I said if her dinner is more important then I'm off. She did my hair but I wasn't happy.  So when I go back in December I won't be using that place again.

I managed to get nearly everything done what I wanted to do while I was away except for Meadowhall. I was actually glad because I hate Meadowhall (or MurderHell as us Yorkshirians call it) I went to Doncaster and Barnsley as well as Rotherham. Met up with a couple of people. I didn't actually buy anything non food-wise except for a few magazines,hair dye and a new top. Barnsley market do lovely ham rolls for 1.50. And Rotherham has a shop called Goodfillas and I adore their bacon Rolls. Beautiful. Unfortunately for me I did put on 5 pounds. But I can lose it again within a week as that is how long it takes me to lose half a stone. I thought I was gonna have trouble getting to Meadowhall on Sunday because of the lack of buses but luckily I managed to get the X19 which takes half an hour from Barnsley to Doncaster then the x78 which takes an hour and only had to wait 20 minutes and was still at Meadowhall an hour before I had to be there for the coach.

Yesterday was OK. My birthday wasn't as bad as I thought. I went to dinner with Dad and then did some shopping at Asda. My birthday presents to myself was 2 CDs and some clothes. I didn't get anything else from anyone else except one birthday card and a book. I don't know if I will be getting anything else in the post this week,who knows? I am meeting the friend I mentioned on Saturday and I am gonna spend some serious money. I got paid today and I have my savings so gonna spend some of them.

Well I have left my 20s behind and I am about to start a new decade. My 20's brought good things and sadness. Here is what I learned throughout my 20s...

I learned that I passed my college course in 2010. 2 passes and a merit for acting. I failed three auditions and passed two more for other things throughout the next 6 years.

In 2011 I found out I had the mental health disorder BPD. I struggled throughout the years then was told in 2018 I didn't meet the criteria for BPD even though I did, then about 5 weeks ago told I DID and that the pyschiatrist agreed with the BPD diagnosis I had before. Which made me angry with the person who said I didn't. Then put on mood meds which are helping at the moment but what happens when they stop working?

In 2013 I learned that I was about to lose my one remaining parent to cancer. In 2017 I learned I was also about to lose my last remaining grandparent. I am now an orphan. But without my stepdad (Who I call dad) I wouldn't know where I'd be right now.

In 2014 I moved back to Rotherham and I managed to get down to 16st7. Then in 2017 I moved back to Berkshire and found I was about 22stone again. I managed to lose 2 and a half stone with a little help from dieting,walking and then sciatica. I am now at just over 20st having put a stone back on. Grrrr! I also learned in 2014 I would be having gastric surgery but unfortunately Rotherham came up first.

In 2018 I learned that I was being given my first ever paid job. Wow! I have had a few jobs before but they were just work placement type things. And I was my mums carer for three years which was nice to do.

I also found out that my special effects make up looked very convincing :) Hahaha maybe I could make a career out of creating blood,cuts and bruise make up if people think it's real and that I had been in an accident and that it scared them.

Well that's enough for one night I'll leave it there
Take care my blog friends x


Wednesday, 17 April 2019

How to make a trifle

April 17, 2019 0
I recently posted a photo on Instagram (emmalouwilkinson) of a trifle that I had made myself and I said that I would post the recipie for it. So here it is (Apologies for the rude worded mug in the background of this photo)

You need...
A large glass dish
Sponge fingers

Take some Sponge fingers and place in the glass bowl, you will need to put quite a few in there as you'll need to make them fit the bowl. Next take a tin of fruit of your choice and empty into the bowl. Next take a packet of jelly cubes,break and put into a glass jug. Add bowling water and stir until the cubes have dissolved. Pour into the bowl. Then place the bowl into the fridge and leave to set.

Once your jelly is properly set you will need to add some custard and spread it about. Then place back into the fridge to chill. Once ready, add some cream, I tend to use whippy cream from a spray can but it is entirely up to you. Then it's ready to serve.

There you have it. Nothing to it really, It is so easy to do.


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